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Saturday, April 24, 2010
24th April 2010.Decided to come to my blog and have a post for April before May arrives. Lets see, a few issues on my mine currently. Was wondering how I should put it across. Currently am in Guards Conversion Course, otherwise known as GCC. Honestly speaking, I've never been so shag out by army before. I can't seem to pull myself together. I am falling apart, even deep within me. Everyday, I can only hope for the night time to come where I get to rest. And when the time comes, I'll probably be worrying about whats coming up and wished time paused there forever. Yea, forever, you've got that right. Time paused on bed. For the past one week, all the sessions were just terrible. I feel as good as dead, lifeless and depressed. How can I endure the next two weeks? I just can't help but keep worrying. I yearn for that peace within me. I missed having it. I hope it will be back soon.
Next issue, I just feel so out of place. Where are my friends? Not "friends" but friends. Where are they. I can't seem to feel their concern. Even though I am in NS, that doesn't mean that I am not available 24/7. I still have my weekends. I just felt that some things should be at least made known to me. I think its all about respect and concern. I can't seem to feel it. We've knew each other for so long and yet now I'm getting this feeling that you people don't need me. Or should I say that I am preferred not around or even worse, forgotten. Apologizing is one thing. Sincerity is another thing. I don't last those last minute and not confirmed invitation. I really don't. That feeling sucks. Its just that bad.