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Confession

Sunday, May 24, 2009

24th May 2009....

I guess everyone should grow along the way of life. We have to independent and know what we are doing. Its been so long, and finally I am going to face it. I am seriously tired, if you know what I meant. I want to get it over and done with. I do not care how others are going to look at me. I know what I want and I will follow my heart. People can talk about the issue behind my back but I am not going to give it a damn. Its not worth my time. I've got better things to do. I don't want to cheat myself anymore. I am losing it. All those sweet nothings, I guess its really sweet nothings. Time is factor to change? I do not know how much time do I have to spare. All I can say is be independent? Thats life? I especially hate it when people make assumption at me and I myself making that mistake on others too. Its just so not right. I hate the situation I am in now. At times I just feel that I can trust no one. YES, you got that right. NO ONE. So be it. Its a realistic world isn't it? I am better off alone I guess.

I feel suffocated.
I find it irritating.
I had enough.
I want to break free.
I want to live my own life.
I want to let go.

Let me go.

p.s There is no point. I've lost it. Time for you to grow up.

{ 10:06 PM }

happy day.

Monday, May 18, 2009

18th May 2009...

Today was a happy day. Morning with andrew and afternoon with an additional Siying. HAHA. This is what humans can do when they are bored in the rain.

Working tomorrow. Oh well. SIGHS.

p.s how to tell you?

{ 11:21 PM }

one more month

Monday, May 11, 2009

11th May 2009..

Its 11th May, simply means one more month to enlistment. How to deal with all that tension and stuff? Mixed feeling. That best describes my feeling now. No Monday blues today as I do not have to work. Weather was pretty nice. Quite cooling. Hope it rains till tomorrow if possible. My hands are itchy once again. But I do not want to play. No mood. Sounds contradicting? I think so too. But thats how I feel now :( Oh ya, I am really addicted to Lychee ice-blended. It taste great although I know bubble tea is not very healthy. Going to run tonight with shirley. Best female running partner. Haha. Imagine running at a not very slow pace and chatting non stop. Lol. You need skill for that. So bored. Eff-ing bored. Nothing to do when you are online. Sometimes I just wish I had a dog. To keep me accompany. But my mum just refused to buy one. Oh well. Life is not always the way you wanted it right? Haha. I am seriously crapping so much. Holy cow!! I want my life to move slowly. Let me enjoy every moment of it. Be it nice or terrible. I just want to savour every moment. Back to rotting.

p.s Drop me a hint. Please.

{ 1:46 PM }

Getting things done

Thursday, May 07, 2009

7th May 2009...

I couldn't sleep last night. Tossed and turn till 10am in the morning. Slept for 2 hours plus and Went off to met mel at AMK Hub as she wants to go to the bank and I need to deposit money too. After which, we head to J8 to get my phone fixed. I can get it back on Saturday. Oh well. And I skipped sectionals. Can't be bothered to go already. Came back home after that and decided to go jogging. Yes, I am determined.Too tired. I say will jog, means will jog. Ran around my house. Ran a complicated route today. Trying to increase the distance as much as possible. I must get fit. Its a must!! I am tired. Really tired. But I am not sleepy. How? Someone help me please. I just can't help it. How I wished you know I felt. How I wish... Should I go swimming tomorrow? I really don't know. Kind of lost now. Don't know what I am going to type next. Just so lost. Should I take sleeping pills? Let me sleep and forget everything that hurts? Sleeping pills.. Come to me...

p.s I hate that feeling

{ 9:35 PM }

Dim Sum Buffet

6th May 2009...

Alrights. Its 1.23 am now. And I am still wide awake. Lets update abit. Somebody help me please...

*I want nobody nobody but you.*

Lame shit. But its cool. HAHA.

Finally I got my treat from mel today. With Kel and Skippy (Si Ying) along. HAHA. I was late when meeting mel. Bus spoilt. Not my fault. Suayness. Reached there and start ordering and eating. Later Skippy and Kel came. Crap throughout the whole session. Skippy keeps ordering food that would fill her curiosity rather than her stomach. End up I have to help her clear the food. Decided to call her SKIPPY because she whine that her name was common. Thought of tonnes of names for her. But skippy ultimately suits her. It seems like the word Skippy existed for her. HAHA. (Its total lame shit.) Ok, I shall be skippy's motivation. Make sure you slim down despite the temptations from the cakes. 4kg is possible. Start running around peanut butter farm, drowning in swimming pool. It helps I promise!!! Buffet-ed till 5.50pm I guessed. *bloated* Head back to school with mel for combine. Tired. Waste of time. Ultimate shag-ness. Oh ya. They went for supper without telling me. So bad. Oh well. I thought of going running but my friend fly me aeroplane.

Mahjong cravings.

Ok I shall end here. Hope I can sleep soon. Sleeping bug. Please come find me!

{ 1:23 AM }

PISSED.

Monday, May 04, 2009

4th May 2009...

Ultimate pissed off. I dictate and rule my own life. I can choose to listen or be stubborn in my way. Don't just think that I owe you my life cause you gave me a life. It just really spoils my mood. Can't I have some rest. Why do you always have to barge in. Sometimes it just really makes me think that its just pure BIASNESS!!

HATRED.

I don't want to flare up the least bit you know. But issues like this are seriously getting on my nerves. Sometimes I just wished I was never born into this realistic world that is just holy CRAP.

Lets side track to divert my anger. I am seriously having sleeping problems.

Insomnia.

If this goes on. I will become a zombie in no time. Think I should go the a psychiatrist. I having mental problem I presume. Pimple outbreaks. *sighs*

On a lighter note, been playing mahjong continuously for 3 days. Holy cow!! I am not a "DU GUI". Just hand itchy at times. And I am just there at times because there are not enough people there for the real "du guis" there. Been on a winning streak. $35 in pocket for save keeping. Lets just hope the lady luck is forever with me. And ms Han's mum is really funny!

p.s. I don't want to go NS

{ 9:43 AM }