depression is setting in.
Friday, July 04, 2008
4th July 2008..Hello people. I am back. Its time for new updates about me and my life.
Still doing my FYP at company now. I seriously think that I am going to be in deep sh**. I am like so way behind my schedule. Experiments are not turning out well as expected. What can I do man. Unreasonable Belgium supervisor is just plain lazy. Practically dumping his job to me despite knowing I am busy with my own project. OT and OT and more OT. Thats all I can predict. Can you imagine I need to work OT the whole of next week? I am not getting paid for my FYP and OT, and yet I need to work super hard. What is this man. The school is not doing anything to protect their students. And talking about OT, it just means that I will not be able to go back to CO. So many scores distributed, but I can tell you now, I have no confidence in all the songs. I seem to be not able to play well. Its not as if I do not want to pract but where can I find more time. Scores from nypco, csco. Its seriously driving me crazy. CSco concert coming up and I am still like smoking most of the time through the songs. Its really too hard. Its too challenging. Joining csco is suppose to train me up, but all I am feeling now is that I need practice, practice and more practice.!! I really cannot cope man. I need to time. Time is never enough. Seriously pissed with myself. I feel that I am really not capable of handling so many things.
I just want to say that I am happy to have my clique to cheer me up. You know who you are. Thank you ya XE and E. =)