time to update
Monday, May 28, 2007
28th MaY 2007...Its been one week plus since I update. I would like to
thank those people who are still tagging at my tagboard.
Thanks for keeping my blog alive. People are nagging
me at me to update. But I really don't know what to update
about. Its 26 more days to sydney. I am super stress. I
can't seem to play that song well. Its making me super
demoralised. I want to practice on it. But the moment I sit
down, I can feel the stress and its seriously making me
have the thought to give up. Have been playing that song
for almost one year already and yet I still can't master it. It
really make me feel useless and hopeless. Its really
driving me to the edge. Practices are so intense right
now till I can hardly breathe. I want to improve. But I don't
seem to have the motivation. I can see really see where I
stand now. At nowhere, perhaps a bottomless pit. Even at
this point in time I am still wondering if its worth it. I know
its my passion. But its seems to be taking control over my
life. I am losing control over my own life. I really need a
break from everything. I don't want to waste my time and
effort in things I know I can't achieve. You all can say what
you want. I don't want to make any comments about it
anymore. I had enough. I really had enough.