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Sunday, February 19, 2006
19th feb 2006...well i feel like blogging abt something special todae. i reali honestly dun noe wad i reali wan. i feel reali lost at times. and is like. no one is ther fer me. i hate being lost in my world. i dun seem to understand myself guess i need someone to appear in my life and bring my out of my pain im goin true. i have to admit one thing though. i reali wan to be loved. ha. i guess its not a crime rite? WADS WRONG WITH ME!!!!! i reali dunno. can someone help me. help me understand myself better?? seeing ppl together kinda makes jealous. but i give them my blessing. haiis. who is the one fer me, i reali wanna noe have been thinking these few daes on wad i wan. but i reali honestly dunno. im in a dilemma. guess my weakest spot is love. haiis; jus cant seem to overcome it. i need help. reali and its urgent. i hate myself honestly. y the ppl i like seem to drift further away from me. while those i hate jus keep pestering me. i reali dunno. sometimes jus feel like ending my life, my life is miserable. YYYYYYYYY????? i wan to noe the answer,i reali wan.i cant seem to handle my own emotion. i need to calm down but i cant. yyyyy??????? who is ther fer me????????? haiis. who can be the one to bring me out of my pain.? honestly?